Tests

To many ppls around
test is like a exam / level to another level / a game

To me it is test my all in faith trust hope and understanding of the things around me and heart.

Fail is a word that i did not like use in all things i do in.

I am glad that i do have friends that really care for me
from young kid to now i am counted as a very luck person as there are alway someone there for me
from time and time i ask myself who are really my friends .
Say the truth after my NS life with a clear mind
i only have a few left who i now really can say friends
also now i can say that there are many different friends that i have
maybe because of NS it change my thinking as well as my way of doing thing in a slow way and i am glad that it is slow.
As a friend i have fail for most of my friends
that is what i think
There is a promise that i made 7 years ago to now i can say that i have keep to it.
but when the promise that i made, cause the person i made the promise for take it for granted then
it maybe time that i break it.
A fool that keep it
Cant say heartbreak as she to me i only feel it as a close friend i have.
Love is something that i have being look for.
to care for someone and knowing the person also feel the same
but maybe i show it too much or too little to the one i care now who i see the most twice a week the most.
From 1 turn to 3 problems. did not know that it can * itself
2 week ago i close my inner heart from my friends right after that i can say i lost my speaking as the whole night at cell no words at all
Fail in trust that lead to that did not know who i can turn to.

that all for today