Uesless person

Ppl used to say that you just need to put your heart in te things you do and you will do it in the end
but noone say that not all the time it will happen , in a place where i see lost in hope as well my trust in ppl as .......................................
The harder you try the more the load seen to increase on me haiz . " can cure others but cant cure self haha that seen funny that a person can help out other in solve their problems but cant do the same for himself . USELESS is the word as what the point in doing it when noone bother / care about it at all
maybe i just a jerk that really none will take notice of at all .
My hope and faith and trust where are you now i really needed you be here for me tell me what should i do . there are two ppl that i share my up and down but now i only have a pc to tell howi feel in me . funny .

used to wish for a person who will understand me be there for me a person that grow with me as years past as well as believe in God , but then i did not really find one at all as noone share anymore . feeling so down that but nothing at all .
Put others before myself / in feeling as well as well being but who really know !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haiz to a level where i give up on myself haiz