up or down

A week have gone by
the same thing doing and doing again
same problem
same place
what new
There are time where i wish i am a star
as it seen to come ad go went it like
without thinking what other ppl feel
just do wat it want
but as i am here i have to do things in a
way tat i do not like
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have to care for person that do not care for you
have to care for person that do not know have feeling for you
have to care for person that only needed help then come to you
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Tan Tan you are strange
doing things that a normal guy will not willingly to do

but when there is some one that care for you , you no longer there anymore


There is a saying you can cure others but you cant heal yourself
it is true for me
i can say i have feeling for you but i may not say it out there iam
afraid of what will happen
here come again the 'if' what' when' how '
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may be i should lock up my heart and be a cold blood person which i feel i becoming in to one
one of my friend say may be it is not the time yet fr you to meet the one
i feel what she say is right but cant there be one that that i can share my up and down with and same go the other way
but i know it will no happen as i belong to alone kind that i do not how to express myself at all and another reason i can find is i not good looking i not the kind that they are looking fr i do not have wat they want .

even now in ns how i wish ihae someone to share how i feel in there there used to be one that i share all my feeling to but ..................................
haiz


" when i first saw you , i fell for you
when i chat with you i feel calm in my heart
how i wish that time will stop at there
buuuuuut no it did not stop at all
as it move on i feel so far away from you
as we busy wit our own things
i cant help it but feeling so sad inside of mee
how i wish that you are here with me through my up and down
and i will do the same for you no matter where you are
you just need to call my name i will be there as fast i can
but then now that the feeling is slowly losing in side of me
i do not know what to say at all
i only know that i cant do anyting to change what happen but i can say is
i will alway be there for you as a friend or a lover or what even you treat me as
"