Just anything about me

2011-03-03T04:05:00.002+08:00

one day after my birthday

one year older

nothing much happen

was hoping for a dinner gathering with my group of friends but somehow this year sense no one seen to remember so in the end having noodle cook by my sis instead . she seen so surprise of me being at home i am too

but then somehow i expect it will turn out this way a week ago

my wishes for this year are

..............................

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2011-02-19T13:25:00.002+08:00

it seen that it took me awhile that i finally come to an ans that is no feeling mean no feeling no point trying to change that as at the end of the day the person who is hurt will be urself n noone else .

Goal For 2011

Earn as much i can n go for a break n remain single i think that suit me better than trying to care too much for others . alway put myself in-front of others unless there someone special which there is none will remain 0 .

Birthday coming up but knowing no one will remember i guess haizz

2011-01-18T11:24:00.002+08:00

A new year with a new job delay to end of this month

haiz i dont know what can i do to faster it or to improve on it

thought with a new year things will get better but i wish it will be faster

i want a better birthday this year but i know it will be a lonely one for me again :(

2010-11-22T02:08:00.003+08:00

haha

laughting out loud as that is all u can do

how can there be anyone who is a fool more than u

know there no possible yet decide to go in head on .

great now u are in deep hurt where no cure to be found

$$$$$ will be the one to make up the lost

feeling will be the last thing i will trust in

FUCK OFF

f... angry

Time will tell

2010-09-26T05:02:00.002+08:00

It been a while that i last come in here , dont really know what to say or write

ppl tell me time is wat all things need to grow up n to get to a better person .

When u see u know

when u hear u believe

when u feel u understand

when u touch u belong

2010-07-13T04:11:00.003+08:00

Sometime when going through a new job there are many things that i need to look up to n also learn to handle things around me .

Reasons for me going through all this is i want to have a better life than the one i have now i dont want my future kids or family to go through wat i have to go through

2010-06-09T01:54:00.002+08:00

It been awhile that i last come in here .

i am now working at AXA

will be working to the goal that i settle with a close friend

no matter if things will work out for both of us in a few years time i will leave it in the hand of fate

As we plan to work out a better life.

i will hold on to the promise i make to her

no matter wat happen this 2 years

will proof to her i am the one

but at the end of it no one will know so

let time be the one to show am i right .

I will handle all problems n things that will come my way n solve them to work to the goals i have

" If time is the only thing that stand between us i will wait to the end of time . to create a living place where u n me will like "

Believe me i will proof to u

Miracle will happen

2010-03-01T19:26:00.001+08:00

2 months have pass

2010 is here to staY

one more day gotten a gift

2010-01-05T14:41:00.002+08:00

it is true to say the more u put in the more pain it will cause when it fail

there are no return for the care n love a person put in when he show to the person

as there a saying if the person do not have feeling for u no matter how much he do at the end of day she will not feel it at all

let it be then

16 days to go to show if she is right about a friend of mine if she is then it will show that nothing will show a friendship worth other than money as it will show the true color of the person .

2009-12-30T23:30:00.003+08:00

One more day + to go before a new year start

that will be the end of 2009

the beginning of 2010

looking back 364 day have gone by how many day can u really say u like it

use it well

plan for the next year to be a better one

upgrade myself , learn new sport , join a outdoor sport rebuild my friendship, learn to see who is true /real friends

2009-12-24T05:00:00.002+08:00

one more day to christmas wish everyone who read my blog a happy holiday

i wish there is someone to company through this day but i dont there will be anyone want to go through this special day with me

thinking i been overcaring for a friend to the level i dont know where i stand as in what am i to her close friend ask me so are u 2 together , my ans is no as that how i feel from her

but what u do is more than a friend i tell her i admit i like her i want to be with her i want her to be my girl but if there is someone better n she is happy with him i will wish her the best n will pray for her like i do everyday . as i believe loving someone what matter is she is happy n health that is more important than being with me but not happy . i will also move away when she is taken to be fair to her bf

this will be a promise for 2010

i hope i will be able to do alot better in the coming year as i want to catch up with wat i lose n want to gain ground of it . want to get a car at least n move on the job if it cant give me wat i want

2009-12-10T03:58:00.002+08:00

It been almost 1 month i last write something

every month that past no matter it is happy or sad it is part of the past of me n friends who company me through the past 1 month

"every step that i take i thought will move me closer yet it seen like it was a step further away from the one i care "

"Maybe it is true to say that i bother too much of how she feel wanted to protect her yet it seen like i doing more harm n good to her , it seen like i becoming a problem to her. i decide to leave her alone n give time to this friendship as i think it will never turn to bgr that i was hoping for . so decide that it will be better for her i will not sms her anymore . "

No matter i will pray for her safety n good health everyday , hope everything will go well for her as what matter is she happy no matter who she with .

she will alway be the one that i love , may be it is a fool to say that as she may never have the same feeling i have for her . i never regret it at all .

but it really hurt me alot been feeling heart pain since that day she say about her past with her x

i will put money above all nothing matter anymore i guess

that all for today

end with a new name i just add in my ic last month

Joze Tan

2009-11-16T07:31:00.002+08:00

gone for a holiday trip to batam for a 1 day with a friend of my
in a way i was hoping to improve our friendship to the next level but it seen like the best it is to remain where it is as somehow there is something missing

but in a way it is an open eye for me over there as first time gone there but overall i can say i really enjoy the company of her even thought that the trip may cancel up the very last min so i must say it is in God will if it is mean to be

i believe God will show the way for me as well as for her

that all for now

2009-11-06T12:32:00.002+08:00

almost one month have pass but nothing much change in my life
love someone mean to me is for the one be happy n healthly that all that matter to me dont think i will be going for any trip at all this year . maybe it is because i know it too well

2009-10-15T04:21:00.002+08:00

it is always easier to walk away from anything a person do not like than to face it but when u face it u kind of learn from it .

guess for now it is better for me to walk away than to say i be there as it will make me look more like a fool who is taken for grant

don't think the person will agree but the truth is u are no longer the person i used to know or care for even thought i keep telling myself i am thinking too much but from the past few time gone out with u it really tell me alot more

i was never never been in ur mind or thought since the day i know u it never have n never will be for Wat i know of as i was always a backup sometime not even a backup ha ha cant believe i say that but it is true

i was told that there are ppl who put themselves above all which i kind of learn it the hard way but it is always be late than never

Sign off for today 16/10/2009 4.31am

2009-09-27T21:17:00.002+08:00

it been awhile that i last come in to check or write

what is done cant be undone which will affect wat u do now

but i understand from a friend who told me which i agree to is

what have gone let it go as what matter is now not the past that gone by as it no longer hold any meaning to wat u do now just feedback for wat we do now

feeling is confuse

Dont know who is friends who is not

only one who really helping me come to term with what i facing but at the end i still need to plan what i want to

BGR no way as noone will fell for me hahaha also i dont think anyone will

Work : something i trying to change as i dont like it at all

Thought : I want to break free i want to have a break

2009-09-25T04:11:00.000+08:00

it been 3 month i last come in
nothing much happen

2009-08-21T04:42:00.000+08:00

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Time is something that we dont have control of as no matter where or what we do it still carry on without stoping or slow down. once i heard a friend say it is not what ppl around say that matter it is what we ourself think that matter more as at the end of the day it is ourself that we have ans to not anyone.

it seen so simple at that time but not many understand it or willing to face it
that all today 4.50am 21/08/09

2009-08-11T04:23:00.000+08:00

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IT been a while that i got time to come in to write about my life
time now is 4.24am just got back home from my first half sending of items
AM i really that bad that no girl fell for me. i think so haixx guess that my life cant be help or change.
through time i believe i will find one guess time n place i am in is not right haha.
that all for today

2009-07-17T23:36:00.002+08:00

Thoughts of mine

" There are time when a person needed friends be around him yet none was there but there are time where he/she want to be alone yet all friends are with him/her.
Only true friends stay through all up n down n advice you when you needed it the most "

I am surprise myself that out of suddenly on Wednesday morning i write this n sms to a few friends of mine .
to say the truth everyone need a friend who is able to share with u everything n not being used by
A close friend of mine just scold me for being to nice to everyone around me as she feel they are taken for grant of me which i have to admit i agree
it just a fool of me doing all the past things

2009-07-03T23:11:00.002+08:00

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It been a long time that i last write in here
nothing much change other than me getting fat which i am sad about it n also fell sick with fever n cough

some time when not speaking is still the best way of answer a person because dont know what more to say anymore

i feel like i dont really know that well all of the friends around me as it seen true from wat a close friend say it is easier for me to say yes than no n how easy it is for me to lent but now the pics i see from what she tell me do make sense
kind of funny that it take me so long then i feel ya she is right after all that i am a foolish one right from the start

anyway thanks alot to the one n only person who really know me PH

For everything that we sign on any paper which have our signing which is a duty for ourselves to understands what it hold us again like it or not as when the point where u sign there no turning back , as it is in black n white
that was also why there is noone u can blame other than urself if anything gone wrong

but somehow as human we are we alway like to blame anything or anyone other than ourself
which is very true
it is alway the best if we take both good n bad as it is part of learning through our life

some time
it seen so much hard to help a friend in need as i still dont have enough contact to really help him which i feel bad about as time are bad around us all where if can help saving money i will try to
anyway hope there be sign from God to lead him the way n also hope all his famly members are safe n sound most important healthly alway

that all for now

it a little too late as what is gone will never come back
so dont say it unless u mean it

2009-05-18T04:30:00.002+08:00

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sometime wat u wish to have is not wat u really want as u seen wat ppl have u also have the feeling of having it
there are time where a decision u made seen wrong but wat make u take the decision at the time that change wat u have now
it is easy to say i dont like a person or i cant live with the person as he / she try to change u but if u got the chance to redo it will u done the same

2009-04-18T01:03:00.002+08:00

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hope to get wat i want
but have to work for it
nothing is free that is for sure
nothing really last forever
is it true???

Guess i care too much for ppl who dont really feel the same way taken for a ride

2009-04-18T01:00:00.002+08:00

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it been a month that i last updated
but nothing much happen
fell sick again seen like i getting weak liao haiz
feeling very down but dont know why
no words to show how i feel now

just a min late
TWK

2009-03-26T04:34:00.002+08:00

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Thoughts

been too busy working even now is my only time rest so will write in a very fast n short
birthday have pass
things are the same
feeling still have for her but no chance so can forget about it
work is not wat i want
health is not that good

maybe not mean to be at all
as fate n feeling do play it role

2009-02-26T22:09:00.002+08:00

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it been a while i last write in here due to my workload n also too lazy to come in
anyway feb coming to an end in few days time
which mean going to be one year older very soon

this year is a year where i will be /planing to be lonely as it having more time myself than spending time outside lol
it sound strange but feel like it will be a lonely year haha
first thing if i am not wrong to say i will not / may not be meeting anyone on my BD as the chance is old also because i dont plan to on my phone that day
haiz maybe i been thinking too much also but it is also time that i have to plan something for myself instead of being an angel who is there to help "hers"
as i am getting to an age where i have to plan for myself

sorry if i am did not reply or ans call anyone of u make as i just want to be 安静 for this year

i dont think anyone i am close to will know anyway lol
just feeling very down haiz

2009-01-28T22:33:00.003+08:00

475
it been 25 days that i last come in to write
this one month seen so busy as i been working hard in day as well as in night
helping my friend's dad florist shop in the day as well as in helping my dad in the night
but from the time i spend somehow it seen hard work but i am happy

2009-01-03T15:46:00.002+08:00

464
p2

Sometime a white lie was all it need to change the course of the path
as time will tell is it a good move or not
thinking of the good n bad before decide on the fact will not only decide the path u plan to take it was change the ppl around u

when the truth is no longer the truth yet another lie

If between feeling n appearance which is more in important to u
maybe to all both are but when it have to be down to one some will take appearance above feeling because can get over the min level u settle urself

a time where a step up is 2 level down
sometime thing u decide on even if at the end it did not turnout wat u expect it to turn out to be . take it as a learning period
if not u will grow up

" To be is not given to care is wat matter
Return should not have as selfless is hard to do "
TWK 03/01/2009

2009-01-02T16:31:00.002+08:00

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A new Year With a old wish

that where i spend my last day of 08 at with 4 friends
to cont............

a Dream

2008-12-21T04:17:00.002+08:00

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It been awhile i last update not that i dont want to but because of my com is down

now using my sis laptop

haiz

it also through this make me understand friends around me

maybe that is als o why i have those thought that night

it seen that no matter how dow n a person is there will be a day that he need to stand up from

if there a word to meaning how i feel now is stuck

maybe whoever read maybe bur

but that i feel

too many things i need to get n change but too little time n money on hand lol

haizz

want to thanks a friend who is there listen to me as well as i listen to her story

it make me feel that behind everyone there are alway a story that not everyone see it as it is

learn to understand as well as standy them whenever she need me as a friend will be there for her whenever i can

A promise i make to 4 friends of mine which one i may going to break

* when the day come for me to move away from being there the only reason will be

no reason for me being there

hope to get my own com by end of jan that is wat i settle myself to do as well as another 2 goal i settle myself to hit for 2009

to be con............

time 04.32am

date 12/21/2008

2008-11-06T16:41:00.002+08:00

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almost 1 month since i last updated

last week i spent my halloween at nightsafari

wat a way it is

a different day compared to the past as i will be at home instead

was hoping that something will scared me to awake instead not haix

but it was a day to remember as i dont think i will have the same feeling when i gone back the next time

feeling change everytime even thought the place u got maybe the same but the time n people who go with u are not

no matter how close a friend can be or how well u know the person somehow there a side that only he/she know

simple is wat i am yet also because of this it made me who i am

i learn to be simple yet not easy taken for ride

time is wat i need to build myself

to be ......... with photos

2008-10-15T07:57:00.002+08:00

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As time goes

getting to know myself better as in thought as well as feeling

i have to agree that sometime my EQ are not that good compare to many of my friends who are good at hiding them

but if all the feeling each have to hide it

Dont u think it is very tired thing to do

maybe i been a nice guy to the level where taken for granted

which i really hope i am wrong in

but .........

maybe the way i handle friendship is wrong in someway i think

haiz

i am glad that i found a friend who are willing to tell me wat i am wrong in

thanks

that all for now going to rest for 2 hour before rushing for work lol in the west haizz

hope it will be a nice day for me

2008-10-05T14:56:00.002+08:00

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As time pass

a person will get to know that if he / she will mean to anyone of his /her friend

it can be a simple as the different in their age

maybe it is not that important as i made it sound to be

but if u have been friends for more than 5 year or even more dont u think it is funny that u dont even remember

haixxx

2008-09-21T03:55:00.004+08:00

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it been so long yet so yesterday

fell sick today

maybe should not have stay out so late last night

haiz miss church today again

have a chat with another sec friend last night

see like i don't really have temper

which seen like i do have

but not many will get to see it because not much things can get me really mad / angry in the first place

but the question i will ask is when n through time u understand each n every friends they are who they are so always expect the unexpected as there will always be hints around in sms learn to read through lines n PP n mood

in a way i have learn to calm down alot this year as why get angry when it will not help in anything

funny that what i feel

should be more of i am not bother about things or PP around me that much anything more . when the down going around too much when there are up i kind take it more willing as when there are good times there will always be bad times

learn to live n enjoy both times with PP who are there with u through it all

There always a time for everything no matter how it many seen to be

or when it seen how little time u have

it is more of do u want to do it or not

looking back to the past 6 month n through friends i did not meet up so long

some thoughts goes through my mind

Be there for those who are there with u even when u are down

it may take time but through time u learn n understand reason why u are here n not anywhere else

learn to take things easy n look at surrounding where u stand when things go wrong as when there are problems the answers are also there

There will be friends who appear when they need u

there are friends who will be there when u need them

it is in time where each of us learn through the mistakes who we make or PP we know make

love n friendship are things that go along with each other

as all things started as friends

but some will remember that way as through time n through PP

something when u know it will never be will never be so let it be it take time for it to settle down

when time come it will show

learn to forgive n forget

time is what all need

through things that gone by the below are for

J.T

Too little too late

* as time go by when thing are right

u will never be there when i call

is it always when things are wrong then i will hear from u

i don't mind as long as u are alright

but as time go by when feeling are fading what i see was a joke in it

cause i see the joker in the show was ??

with tears in his eyes with thousand or millions words to Say

but when he see u walk to him he just wipe off the tears n try his best to make u smile but at the end of the day when u are back to normal Wat i see is u left him there alone n walk away from his life without say anything at all

the circle of this just carry on

to the day when he fell with a break heart that he carry for the past years

bring a place where he rest in peace with it with out letting it out

too little too late to say Wat he mean as Wat left are tears mark on it face*

let it be where it should be

21/09/2008

4.25am

let it for now

sign off now

TWK

Trust Worthing Kaori

2008-09-13T05:04:00.003+08:00

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07-09-2008

A day my close friend get marry

here are some pics took that day

the brothers of 3

Best man & lady & Couple

The brothers & Couple

原来,一切只是自己太在乎了

That is my nick since sunday

but it got nothing to do with the wedding

to be .........

5.25am

13/09/08

2008-08-24T02:45:00.002+08:00

Thoughts that fill my heart part 1
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Play floor ball today something new to me also did not know that the game time may be short which is 10min but it seen so long when u are playing it compare when u just look from out side

have a chat with a long time friend who is going to get marry soon which i am very happy about it as she is like a sis to me n now found a guy which i believe will take very good care of her
ha ha in a way she only bring up a few topics
which i keep running away from
one thing is i not that good as what u say about me
as i also have my lonely time
where i wish for someone who really understand me
are there with me
but dream on TWK
i also have my bad temper time
where not many people have seen me in

9 years n counting
If there a few words i have to tell the person i care
i glad to know u in this life which if there really a chance i really would to say i do like u hope u feel the same way too

some time
it is like to see that the person is happy that all that matter even thought u may know or she/he may have say long ago that there no way that he/she will like u

if everything a person do is to gain something then what the point as in if everything just for gaining something that they want then they do it in the end what the point
maybe people will say that in life n at 2008 who in the right mind will do thing with asking for a return
there are a few around which i may not count as one as only people around can say u are or not
as there are time where what u do are blind by things around due to low EQ

* If u know what i feel n what i think
u should know i never ask for anything from u
as what i know i only for is
to see u smile from the bottom of Ur heart
n
that u are happy
that all
i ask
from U*

Someone close yet seen so far
someone who i seen to understand yet not understand
Someone who cause my heart to race yet cause me pain
what goes up have to come down

There are time where things may not be as smooth as it is
there are time where u are down
there are days that u feel like being alone
there are things that u may not be able to do at all
just call my name n i try to be there for you
That a promise i made to you

2008-08-06T07:11:00.002+08:00

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in life there will alway be problems n it is how each person plan to face it that matter as some will take the easy way out is running away from it

there a book i read saying never put the pic on the problem u have instead on the solution u plan to use to solve the problem

as when u decide to see the problem with out on the ans/ solution then u will see that the problem will get bigger where u have more things u need to do

2008-07-26T23:48:00.002+08:00

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it been 2 weeks that i last updated

still searching for my goal in life
it been sometime i know

' sometime things to do are so near yet not done '
somethings are easy to do but done it in the hard way

Simple some how is still the best way
to ppl i care maybe i drop down in caring for number of ppl as i know
maybe put it as to the few who i really care
i still hold the promise i made to u if u still remember wat it is
somehow i may not be able to done all but i will try not to break any i made

to the one that mind maybe with but may not know
days that u are away are long n slow
things around dont seen to hold the same meaning when u are here
but i have my fear do u feel the same as i do for u

ans ???/??

sometime i wonder if anyone of us can go back time wat will u decide to do?

*TWK *
" if time going to stop now wat will u do
if i dont know u then how life will
but life that i know u it seen fill with meaning
so here i am to tell u how i feel
from the bottom of my heart i do
but are u having the same feeling as i do ........
as time goes by
as i waited at the same place where we meet looking around
searching around but no matter where i look
u are no longer there
but my feeling for u will alway be in me no matter wat happen as that wat i promise u
so even if someone ask me is it worth it
my ans will be Yes as love is giving without asking for anything in return"

2008-07-10T04:00:00.002+08:00

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Looking back i really miss my time with the group of church friends alot
haix

there was a time for everything

when a person is nice to u wat do that mean ?
when the person u care misunderstand u wat will u do

some time when u care too much or more than the other person u will try to know wat he or she is doing the whole day which is not good at all

if u are down then u look for me wat do that mean
when wat u say mean alot more to me than u know
when i say i will alway be there will u believe wat i say
will u still trust the one who u know the since young or the person u like

if there one word to say how i feel is worry
cause i will be thinking how things will work out for the next 5 days for u
is everything alright
will u be enjoying

haizz

that it for today

2008-07-05T23:24:00.002+08:00

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searching for a life goal for the past weeks
somehow not able to find one i really can put 100% in

time
something that just go on just like our life still the life end

to see what other see is to put urself in other people shoes

2008-06-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

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just past midnight
Day -Wednesday
morning
12.12am

not working today as got a gathering in the afternoon plus
resetting my thinking
haiz somehow at this time today i not feeling tired but drained from the app today i had
which i can say i learn from new grants that can be put in 4 different area in working way
dont plan to go in to detail of my work as time to relax

mind is in abit of mess
not feeling happy with how i am now
not feeling too well after the durians i and my sis have
haiz

if today is the last day u have wat will u do??
for me i will mostly do is go out with close friend n also call friends who i care to see if there anything i can help in to settle everything in that one day maybe it will be a busy yet selfless day u can say but it is how i think i will used up my life fully without leting them know that i may not be around for friends who i do not contact much i will not call them as it will be more strange as for friends i meet up i will not tell them about the news i will not be around as i believe if the day really happen i will not want friends around me feeling down/sad as that not wat i want my friend to remember me as is happy time lol

that it for now

2008-06-16T01:01:00.003+08:00

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Dont plan to carry on from the last blog.

so it will be something new instead

love is something everyone have to go through

which i admit i have not yet

i spend this topic with a friend on friday night

but wat is so interest that make me want to write about it is how love can make a person act or feel in a way that is so different from he/she used to

maybe i am wrong or not right to comment on as i have not really gone through one other than all one sides love

haha funny to say this here

what i learn /know from the chat is that he/she will have a soft side for the person he/she like .

but the question i have for ppl who reading this blog is

how do u overcome the trust u lose in the person u like in

how do u know that he/she will not do the same thing to u again

how will things be different when u decide to try again with her/him

is it a one-sided problem or is it 2 way problem

is drinking the way to solve the problem which my own ans is Never

but some will say it will

to love someone is not having to be the person

but is to see her live happy n health that matter

to love someone is be there for her whenever she need u ever if u know it is not possible for u to be ur girl

to love need more effort than being love by but in love it mean / take 2 to make it a happy story sometime give sometime take

there no way to maintain a bgr if u are the side only give n not take

it take one side to make the move to end the misunderstand so learn to forgive n forget as it is very tired to be angry with someone u love

just want to end with

never take the person u love who is by ur side now for ganted

say u care n u love her when u see each other as she is also ur family member

so say u care as words mean as much as u show it

L-

O-

V-

E-

that is for the topic on L.O.V.E

2008-06-11T02:03:00.002+08:00

332

11 june 08
02.10am

A time where all friends + me should be sleep yet somehow i still awake

" when u are down where / who will u look to "
when things dont go the way u plan it to be how should u go about doing it
when all dont trust wat u say wat should u do
if u looking for someone who u can speak to who should u look to?

in life there are period of time where u will ask these questions to urself

maybe i am not the first or second maybe to some i maynot even appear in their list to call or speak to
cant blame them as i maybe a good listener but maynot be the person who give the ans they maybe looking for

to someone who i really care for if u did find me to chat about ur problem i honestly thanks u for sharing ur up n down with me

if love is a word which word is the best to say ?
if caring someone is to hurt another friend will u still do it ?
if promise is wat u want wat will u want the promise to be ?
if u left with cash or love which one will u take ?
if u have 2 person u love but only be with one who will u go for ?

Part 1

end
02.21

2008-05-30T01:21:00.003+08:00

321

JUST FOR U

when saying mean nothing
when doing show wat u mean

if saying do help them why do ppl do think
because saying do not help that why doing do help solve things up

if u mean it then do it as it is like i say i promise u this but without doing it
it do not mean anything at all
as wat u do say alot more than wat u only say

if there is way to go back time
i want to say i am sorry

as now u are gone wat i can do mean nothing at all
as u teach me who i am now
Alway remember
One & Only
Mr Cheng

2008-05-23T07:13:00.002+08:00

318

Faith & Trust

for those who know me way back to my ns day u may know by i alway say this 2 words

up to today i still pray for this 2 words because i dont have the faith in myself where friends who i know also say that they have faith in me even the clients are saying that but somehow i lack of that n trust ?
should i say i too easy trust wat ppl around me say without really thinking through wat they just say then just believe in them

some time i dont even trust myself as in able to complete wat others expect me to do in the time slot they give me

how i wish i have more time on weekend then i able to do something that i am relax doing

fear
the fear where everyone have
the one where each have to overcome themselves
as it is within themselves

2008-05-08T03:43:00.002+08:00

308

It been a very tired month
still not able to recover total from the injury
maybe it is due to my lack of rest that why it take a long time

wonder how friends around doing nowaday
it been a long time i meet up some of u all

"be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet are fighting a battle of their own"
Got this from a friend nick which i feel it is very true
first of all because i fee that inside a person there alway some trouble that he/she is going through maybe it better for u as a friend lent him/her a listening ear so that if he/she need a person to speak u there alway u around
think about it if u are feeling down then a friend or someone u need just say something that bright ur life wat will u feel

Remember do wat u want others to do on to u
it better to have one more friend
show care to everyone u care for n not to hurt them at all

2008-05-02T04:37:00.003+08:00

each day i live now is counted as extra for me as somehow i really feel i am very luck to be here writing maybe even some of my close feel the same way too
that why i somehow wanted to show more caring to those i care

A day here is a day away from u
A day i learn from here i learn more about u
A day i care for others is what u show me through that secs i have in u

so i thanks u for letting me live again

A prayer each day is how i feel to get to know u better

Give thanks to u above us all
11/04/2008

2008-05-02T04:35:00.000+08:00

What Tan Wan Kheong Means

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.

You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.

People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out.

Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia.

Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-04-27T02:33:00.003+08:00

may be to all a card u seen in this pic is normal
but for me it is something special
reason is because tis is the one maybe only card i got from close friend
who i am care alot for maybe share alot of my up n down
THANKS
From my heart
As it really touch me alot of by the words u say in it

still recover from it
also learn that even thought money is important
but there are also many things that mean more to me from that day
on

learn that no matter how bad things can go there will alway be a time where it will pick up
give ur best shot

funny writing at this time of sunday

when enough also mean so lack of

As within so without. As above so below

when u understand this
u will know me better as it is how i feel now
so that it for now

A day that change my life

2008-04-18T01:01:00.002+08:00

it been along time

the day that change my life

11/04/08

why i say that is because for most ppl who do not contact me or the other way round will know not know some thing happen in the morning happen to be 4 in the morning

many ppl say hey u are really luckly to be alive from wat the damage ur car is in now
i was also wondering how i am able to walk out with the min injury i got

2008-03-31T07:26:00.003+08:00

it been a long time i last update
anyway
today
i want to share is what i see from a friend blogger
"for someone who's going to be serving others all her life, it's wise to realise how Jesus served." That's a pretty high calling to reach, almost scary to think of. But I felt really touched when he added, "And how did He do it? By always remembering to draw strength from God." So that makes 2 things to work toward :)

which is something missing in my life now haizz
somehow i wonder where i spend my time at now compare to last time

................

2008-02-26T07:06:00.003+08:00

it been a month plus my last entry

life just seen more sian to me as it is like the same for everyday

feeling is still the same for the person just that it maybe time to say it's time to let go
dont really feel that this year going to a smooth year for me at all hope i am wrong about that.

Gone to watch PS I LOVE U with my friends it a very nice show that bring out wat love is about if u put ur heart into it
here wat we have after the show

2008-01-10T07:21:00.000+08:00

being a sick person for the past one week+ cause by my sis who pass it to the whole family
haiz maybe i am not as health as before

there seen to be a sign for me
remember it has been rainning for the monday n tuesday night
n maybe i in a rush or should i say i am no longer who can stand waiting while i know i can send out some of the items out earlier which i almost crash my dad car it just a few more m n that it for me i was having fear building in me
just when i thought maybe it was a one of thing that happen it stuck again n this time it rainning cats N dogs i was on my way home driving around 60 at Tpe n suddenly the car infront of me hit the barke n i make the same move but it was closer than the night before

haizz
just hope that it is over
as it really seen like that it when i sense like it coming to the end ...........

feel different this time seeing u as i dont feel the same as i am to u maybe to say i have let go n do not think it should be my part to care for u all the time as u have someone doing it so i feel tobe fair to ur bf
i will not be seeing / meeting u unless there a need to
sms n call will get lesser if u can sense it but i know nah u will not

it been a while now that the sense of how i can feel how the ppl i know feel is coming back to me
one thing i know is if a person who really care about u will remember wat u say in anything maybe not the whole thing but at the least some of it
but there are some who thought they care but i know that it maybe just a show to me or something but through wat they say n do tell a different story .
ppl say a pic tell a thousand words , i feel learning to love n to care n to let go tell a million words if u get wat i mean

used to call a friend my luck star but now i will need to find another star as she was taken
used to being say u dont understand me we really have gap in thinking but in the end i realize meaning behind it

A fool who show the true face will alway be a fool as all ur cards are show to everyone

2008 a year i know all my friends around me are safe n sound

to be

pl write some feedback if can

2007-12-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

sat was a day to remember
as a friend of my got her wish come true but also know that she wish that her dad was there to for a day to remember of

over all it was good to go back to occ even thought i was afraid how things over there have change

to me 2007 was a year to forget due to a number of things

it also help me to grow in person as well as thinking toward ppl
somehow i feel that maybe i been in a circle where i treat friends too well to the level where i feel been use
anyway i dont plan to carry on this as it the last day of the year where chance are i will be at home again

which somehow i submind have tell me this a week ago

feeling upset n down where noone to turn to this time round haiz

wat mean the most is wat u say the most through ur words
wat is blinded will be seen through time
wat is cheated will be hold for wat it done

2007-12-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

it's been a month
somehow i feel the ppl who i really know me are 0 from the past one month who i gone out with
maybe wat they thought it is is not the same as wat i thought i need

prioritize
different due to time which i cant blame anyone

today i change my msn nick to if i am not wat i used to be reason things are no longer the same between us all as ur prioritize are no longer the same

because there a person who say all things will change no matter wat it is as time pass
it is our luck that in this life we get to be friends as u will not know wat will happen as any thing may happen like it or not

if u care for a person wat the person say or promise u will take it to heart which i see from a friend today as it is no easy to have the time to gather together as wat i understand so i understand how he feel but i only can say learn to let go no matter how the person or things mean to u as the best u can make the person happy is let the person do wat he/she like n be there for her/him all time but dont bother her/him too much when she/he is taken

to be wat i am
is not to do it on ur friends who u care or anything one
as it is a circle

2007-11-29T23:49:00.000+08:00

away from singapore for the past 3 days
but still sleep the same amount as my days helping my dad
somehow i enjoy last night the most as there are living singing from stars from Singapore , hk , Taiwan

somehow from the 3 days away with a min of money i bought along
have to think before doing anything but it is OK i guess

"there are times that i thought i still feel as strong for u as i was but it show me that even if anything happen there are ppl who will take my role for me
may only when u needed help then my name u will recall which i cant blame u as i just a friend right from the start i learn now to move on from where i been for u "

there are chance that u may not be able to find me as my phone seen to dieing off with my feeling for u

just think it as my feeling will no longer be the same for u as i was never enter Ur world before that how i sense it

A friend who do all n ask for no return has gone
taking with it the feeling of love n care for u J

As u build a new future with him i wish u all the best as the day 31/12/07 will mark the day i stop my support in finical for u only in caring i will do as then it will be fair for him as well as for me

2007-11-09T07:45:00.000+08:00

"when everything that needed to be done is done then it is time to say

goodbye "

when the reason to stay n stand by u are gone

wat do u expect me to do ?

Stay?

Go?

most ppl will say stay as i need u

but is it the real ans that really mean it

only u will know

when a person is alone

where he/she cant find a reason to call someone he/she care

who can he/she find ?

there are a total of 4 ppl all are female that i give the same promise to

that is no matter wat happen where i am i will alway be there for u through anytime that have up n down in ur life just give me a sms / call n i will be there no matter wat

but now i realize that not everyone of them or anyone of the 4 need that kind of promise from me

for some i may seen like a help-line when in needed of help

but who do i will to when i just needed someone who i care / love to listen to wat i have in my heart ?

ans NIL

funny as there are one who say u can share with me when u are down or when u needed a listening ear but in the end i did not dare to share with u as it is no longer the same when u made that promise to me

but i never blame u as it is fate

no longer i feel that close to u as it feel more like i am moving away from u as time pass

which is a fact that i dont think u know

there are time that i tell u something that got 2 meaning but i know that of all of wat i say u maynot remember wat i say the last min as time are no longer the same

maybe to say

in the first place

i was not even in the pic at all just a person who u can fell back to when there are no one that are free at that time

but at that time i alway skip a heart beat when i seen it is u who call

but .....

the only thing i can say is

u are one of 2 person who can turn my world upside down

my job is done for u as all i can

to 598

the day u make a guy drop the first tears is the day the guy's heart die

dont think u will know anyway

in front of u

u alway seen a person who have no problem or a person who problem are never mean much in u

cant blame u

as i was not the one from day 1

i know u

2007-11-04T03:15:00.000+08:00

seen like a dream that out of sudden i wake up
it was just a joke from the start
u was never in the race at all
so why bother then

been thinking about the 6 cards
hurt is the last but
.......

2007-10-29T14:56:00.000+08:00

Fade away

as the time come

nothing seen to stay

as no words needed to say

i will move away

left no words behind

fade away

i will do

as the time is right

my job is done

so i

fade away

2007-10-16T13:13:00.000+08:00

back from taiwan
back from a break

but sian of life back here

maybe to say time over there nothing much to worry as well as to think
but also understand the need of wat money can do at there
ppl say wat money can solve are not problem as money can do so many things
but ppl forget tat if we put money above all then u will see that human sense are no longer around as all others are being taken for granted

also understand that not all ppl are good comapny to go oversea with like it or not
as u will understand how i feel when u meet one

maybe the growing time for me just start in a way as too many things that happen for the past years n month only these 3 month i feel it

anyway jut feel glad u like the gift even thought i know u never expect it will be wat u not expect it even thought i give u the feeling it is wat u wanted yet decide not to as the surpise are no longer there plus it will be more fun is expect the unexpected

anyway i will make full use of my time to improve my writing
will use my other hand to write instead

guess i need someone to care for me being there for me when i ever i am down n able to do the sAMe for her

nah it will not happen i guess n hope too tired to do it i think
but wish to tired to have one to see how it will work out but a joke hahaha

that it too tired as just back only will update some pic the next time

2007-10-03T14:38:00.000+08:00

it been almost 2 month
times pass
update for last month

nothing much happen just my mood seen like a ride up n down in sec dont know wat really happen

dont plan to say it anyway just too tired to say again

" too little too late "

the effect to do thing alway have a start n end

2007-08-12T02:31:00.000+08:00

haiz
just a few more hours to go n off to another place
somehow dont feel like going but have to
as it maybe the link i need to seek my target for life

sad as ..........

going to take a rest at the meantime will update when i am back

2007-07-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

nowaday it take 1month to come up with wat i want to fill my blog but also dont think much ppl will come in to read about it anyway

in a hour time will be on my way to pick up eunice up to send her to airport as she going for a holiday with angela

life not going to be the same from then on as all things have to face it no matter i like it or not n no place to hide . being real in facing the life alone ya for the first time i admint it as noone to go to or hide . in a place where the high u study for get u further . haiz i am sick of it , dont have a ideas who to look to or lent a ear from .....

The one who i trust the most n care the most i no longer i can say i really trust wat she say anymore . as i feel i no longer feel i know u that much anymore since that trip

somehow / somewhere TWK who all know seen to lost as all things do not seen that simple anymore, someone tell me before never trust a person too much as u never know the real reason for him or her to be ur friend

i have to say Sorry for not listening to u

i also would to say Sorry to Mr Cheng a person who bring hope n like a father/ family member to me as i never get the chance to say goodbye for the last time as well as to say sorry for not turning up for the 2 outing

i still remember the dream i have about u

how i wish u are still around. Sir

I want to tell all i am sorry for the time being i am not able face anything as i still have not overcome my 2 problems

hope those who really trust me as friends can understand

2007-06-26T12:47:00.000+08:00

Part 1

seen like things in the past keep catching up with me as in the things i done as well as did not do

somehow the regret in not saying sorry to my grandmother before she pass away remain the top problem i still facing plus to the fact that i have a angry chat the night before she gone make it even worse

2007-06-16T16:14:00.000+08:00

everything is fine after a long period of thinking as well as rest
have to say thanks to Angela for everything if not guess i will not be over come it at all that all for now will be back

2007-05-18T14:22:00.000+08:00

2 week have past yet still not recover
fever on/off coughing like crazy
seen like getting old

nothing seen to be going right anyway
haiz
life are getting more more meaningless by sec

2007-05-05T03:01:00.000+08:00

what the meaning u get watching this movie

many ppl will say it is not as good as the 1&2

but is it the main point at all ?

to me

to move on u have to learn to forgive yourself and then others

Never say that u don't have a choice as everything before u do u have 2 choices

it depend on which one will u take

it same go to everything we do everyday

to the one u love n care

learn to accept their choice

for myself i can only say i am really tired

no longer know who should i trust

tears

2007-04-29T01:44:00.000+08:00

haiz
too tired

am i being too caring to everyone
.................

am i being too kind

maybe in the end

i am the one who ask for it

giving have being the way i do things for the ones i care

maybe i should not carry on doing as in a world where money seen to matter more than feeling and thoughts

haiz

sian of this life

feeling the cold from my heart that break my trust/promise in myself

maybe i should be more ........... as that how life is in the first place

my feeling only my phone can sense it from now on as that is what i have left by myside

winning habits

2007-04-17T17:06:00.000+08:00

lesson learn from the book winning habits
it is a book worth reading
spend 3 hours reading at mac yesterday night and understand the meaing it hold behind it

the way to go

Point 1
Be fist on, last off , and add extra value

which mean attitude in the things we do in must be the same even if the te big details are been done as there are small detail that need to follow up
remeber that it's results-based rather than activity-based

Point 2

Never trade results for excuses

meaning when a goal uset out to do no matter how hard it is or how long it will take make sure that u finish it no matter what never find an excuses for it

when facing the problem think of there's no excuse and then ding whatever was necessary to achieve wha u had set out t do

Point 3

Solve problems in advance

"Every move's a move, and everything you do makes a difference. But not every difference you make is intended. Or even positive, for that matter. More often than not, when ppl decide to do something either to implement a new decision or to solve a problm they create unintended consequences . Those unintended consequences are new problems "

by troubleshooting your action plan befre you implement them

Point 4

Alway make those around u look good

.......

words that fill my mind

2007-04-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

just need a place to say what in my mind the only place is here

what the meaning of to love someone
is it to be with the person
is it to make sure the person live better and is happy
or is it share the up and down

the ans i feel is all
if it is possible

life have been very sian as my day is my night
if anyone understand that
anyway a few more days to go
will be off to china haizzz
ppl go oversea are overjoy but i did not have that kind of feeling at all more like uneasy about it

in a person life there many be alot of ppl u are close to but there are very few who know u well
there are some who u like n care
there are some who u know only can be friends
there are some who u thought u know them well but instead no

there are a fews friends i say i will alway be there for them no matter what happen or where i am , up to now if i remember correct is 4 person if i am not wrong
only 1 person who if i cant really forget or say i cant do what i used to do for u unless if i am no longer around
the only one who if i lie/hurt to will be something i never plan to do unless if i know that my time is up and no longer can i be there to care and to proctive u anymore
to hurt the one u care the pain will be more on urself if the person u care mean something to u
for that i gone through it which i dont plan to do so again

i will keep the promise that i hold to u that which i do not plan to break at all even thought there are time where i know u cant stand me too

at the least i hope if really the unexpect happen , i can only say i am sorry no longer can i keep the promise i hold to u . even thought this message there are no chance u can see it at all which i know u favour to speak face to face if there are things to be say .

just want to say u are still the only one who i love and care the most for more than myself and the only one who i miss most and worry the most for , the things i say i mean it
even thought i dont know u feel the same or not as i cant blame u if u are not as love or to like a person cant be force

2007-03-29T02:08:00.000+08:00

should i say life have never been so meanless since the day my birthday pass
funny
but somehow it is true

update on my life
working in the night sleeping in the day

want to know more speakto me instead

PLUS 1

2007-03-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

maybe it is true that i dont really have much friends
but kind of expect it

hope that it be a better year from 00.00 for me that is all i can hope for

time

2007-02-27T22:32:00.000+08:00

maybe only when a person is sick then he will start to think

the feeling of being this sick really make me think

if i am to leave this place what should i write in here as this maybe the last words

but then what i want to say i have say

time to rest to con .......... if ...........

hope

2007-02-26T02:23:00.000+08:00

haiz

26/02/07

02.44AM

maybe it is maybe it is not

but time have gone on without stop

a new year have come where a year old it seen

what is learn will be seen through the way u live

only time can tell

sorry to andrew if that night i sound angry when u call back i was not angry with u at all i was angry with myself as i did not really plan my time that day also would like to say sorry to xinyi that i did not manage to send u off that day, i will remember i own u a treat and a supper

what come with it will go with it

with it come with it goes

what is done will alway be in the history

as u cant gone back to change it

but u can try not to do it again

say what is true as what is untrue will be show as time go by

say what u reallly mean instead of the lie as it will hurt more than urself

say what u think instead of what u are hide as u are not being truthfully to urself as others

say what u really feeling for the person instead of lie through it as this maybe the only time u can tell the person as u will not know what the happen in the next sec

TWK is a nick which carry out what i believe in

but the same words may mean a different thing to another person

when u learn to care for urself maybe the day u learn to care for other

when u learn to say the right thing is the day u are leaving this place

when u learn to say the true is the day that sun will be ur side

when u decide to take that move u have to understand what it lead u

when u decide to do it please think of ppl around u

when u decide to dont say u are sorry as it done

when u decide to say it then dont think of taking it back as wat is say cant be undone as the water u pour out cant fill back where it come from

if through what i write u who read it and understand what it mean inside

i will be glad as it mean u have gain what i have to u readers

time to say goodnight

to be con.........

to the one

haiz kind of funny as in writing at this time where i should be sleep

if i say what i say to u last morning is not true then i dont think i am alive when the next sun light shine as action u seen is what i mean

2007-01-06T00:42:00.000+08:00

1 month have pass

thought

between love and friendship what is more important

funny

no ans

as i got none

one bye one seen to left me

but i cant really blame them

move on is something up to now i have not done

i plan to do it on my sis birthday which happen to be today

te 3 wish i have for 07 is

...

...

...

thought

2006-12-01T02:16:00.000+08:00

1st day of the month with a new goal that is .......
about to go to sleep with a mind full of thought of things that happen around me and my close friend
funny as in it is so long that i give a ride to someone who know me for so long
maybe it is about time that be fair to friends who are there for me
that all to be ............

there are many QQQ without an ans
but there are things nowaday with ans tat are there which need not be say to understand what it mean

"sometime taking a step back is better as u can see what is going around
is better

2006-11-14T17:27:00.000+08:00

seen like it is time for me to go do some sport it been a while that i last done any

maybe tennis or badminton

fade feeling

2006-11-06T17:47:00.000+08:00

Maybe it is justho a person feel that change how the person take care of the person around him

sometime doing things that thought is right seen right yet the person still got hurt by it

wonder what i have done is right or wrong at all

Did my words and acting touch u or have all of it is just a waste.

Friendship

2006-10-27T14:49:00.000+08:00

back to school for 2 week yet wish that it should not have
maybe i just to have a longer break
maybe i just lazy to wakeup
but the truth is to face the ppl in my class who wear a mask
sian of all of it

2006-09-23T01:06:00.000+08:00

Exams over

life getting more boring

even close friends are saying that too

haiz when did it started to be so boring way of being alive i wonder

Still single guess that will remain as it is for a long time

but who care anyway

meet up with my NS buddy who is the same month and day as me

miss those time but life still move on even when i writing this now

feeling

but who care

thoughts

who bother to find out

sense

missing soon

No Promises

life

2006-09-07T00:30:00.000+08:00

IT been almost 1 month
few more days before my exams
drain by what happen around me
no point saying as most of ppl who is close should know abit here and there
but can say is Got nothing to do with BGR this time as somehow it will be no longer be part of my life for now

"Learn to stand before u run
learn to wait before making a move
see how things work before decide what to do next

times

2006-08-18T23:48:00.000+08:00

when the time to say goodbye
it is alway sad time when that happpen
when everything is fine u will never see what is missing
it is alway when ppl pass away then u see the value in the person
Never say something that u dont mean it as when words are let out u can never take back the word u say to the person
think before u say anything as sometime some words say with out thinking will hurt ppl feeling
Never say tomorrow then do as when is our time up noone know
if there is someone that mean alot to u let the person know about it
at the least when u are gone the person will know what u mean to him

when things happen to friends never never laugh at them try to help them instead as maybe tomorrow it is ur turn

Chance is something take u have to take when it appear to u never say let wait and see
as by the time it should be gone

Maybe i am not 100% the kind of friends u will look for / share with any problem u have . but i can say is no matter what i will alway be there if i have given u my words before 18/08/06
i will uphold them .

2006-08-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

Maybe when a person grow old and when he start to look around him

he realise that the ppl around him and place where he used to live have change

Parents that provide him the food as well as the money grow old

He suddenly awaken

life is not that simple after all

Life is hard is u never work hard when u are young

as it will change the whole life forever

" as i look around me i see nothing i used to know

no longer that friendly feeling i got from the surrounding

only left with thought of how life will be

as money seen to over take a place where home used to feel

nothing seen to matter more than money that is what i feel now

Reason 1 there no place u can go to with it

no money u cant buy anything

that how life seen to me

A fool with a mask of jokes

WORDS

2006-07-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

haiz
Friends are mean to be there for u ?
but first of all think about it the other way have u been there for them before
if yes i can maybe say u are a friend indeed
if u are not just too bad as it mean u do not have time for others
special feeling for someone is something that words cant be used to explain it
but when it turn out that is just one side things then do not know what to say
it may seen to be a joke but can happen to anyone u know or maybe it can be u

'i can be what u want me to be yet when the table turn it may not be the same
when u say that u dislike this kind of person it may mean that u are looking for this kind of person

when words u say do not mean the same as what u feel
in the end u hurt not only person love u but also urself
maybe i just a parttime to many ppl who when needed pl call
but when it is my turn to ask for help to save me i turn around and found noone but myself
may be it is me myself that i lost some close friends that i used to have but also some reasons due to everyone have their own life to live so decide to be alone

hurt is something that happen to me that i not able to recover from the past injury when the new one will be build onto it

if say that up to now .... did not know why i did most thing for then i guess i wasted ur time as in not the one which in the end i will decide to walk away with out goodbye

hurt what the words being used
when that happen it is not only the person who is hurt by what is being say but also the person who say it are also hurt as he hurt the one he love which is = to using a knife put through the person heart not only that when u heard words like not my business if u are hurt that the e,g that i feel happen around

somehow just run out of words and thoughts that i have

that all part2 part one is in XY link

2006-07-18T14:50:00.000+08:00

there are nothing that will remain as what it is no matter how much u try. as time as well as ppl move on things around will change

when one place is hot which mean another place is cold .

the faster u get to know a person the faster u will say goodbye to the person
it seen true for me even if there are no reason for caring for te person
.haiz guess that life,

let my words be few yet means alot

feeling

2006-07-06T14:34:00.000+08:00

A good friend have left for study , feeling happy for her and also wanted to say sorry for the first round did not gone to send her
she is a brave and stronge girl that i look up to as she bring joy and bright ppl around her
feeling glad to have her as my friend
hope to see her ,,,,
haiz
some how all things happen for a reason
it just need times to settle things down
As what i write in the past post every step or choice we decide on not only change what path we take but also the ppl around us

Great to heard a friend got a girlfriend liao
hope that everything will work out fine all the way for him
being together is simple but can also be hard
smetime simple things that done together can bring joy to each other but when there are problem that come between it , it is how both person go and handle it together

when giving = to pain
when one side only give only and another side only take only over time the one that give will feel tired and will start asking worth the trouble of doing all this things at all

funny that all for now i guess

Incomplete destiny
is it all written down in a book what we are doing now or can we just write our own path

2006-06-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

It been awhile that i come in here
start of the things that
i miss the smile that i used to have
time where i need not bother about anything

Used to keep all promise i made
Used to be Mr nice
Yet time has move on i guess

???????????
the words that break **************
did not really recover from that since
decide to close all gates i feel

guess i should have be gone by now if i have taken the first path
still here writing
* when u wanted something , you have to giveup on something
but the value that u give up on sometime is more important than what u give up at first
some friends of my give up friendship yet gain nothing but feeling more lonely
*when u decide one a choice think about it first before u confirm it as it will be a choice that will not only change u but also ppl around u as well as things
* when u decide to care for anyone think about it. as there are times that it may turn to fell on deaf ears

that all that i can write today . . . . . . ...

when u step the line it will take years to repair the damage it have costs

when saying nothing is easier than saying out as meaning by change during the path of sound

thought

2006-05-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

Something no matter how u run from it. it will find u no matter what u do
having sleepless night since school reopen.
reasons many but cant really know which one really is the main one

A Friend who never walk away

maybe friends that know me long enough may not even remember me
a part of me seen to be searching for help which may explain the miss calls that happen which i did not know about it at all.
Did not feel like bother with anything that happen around me anymore do not have the strength do what i used to do
I know he is still waiting for me to go back to him as he not only send through friends from OCC but also friends in my ite . which i do not have any ans to his question he given me
guess u all may know who i am speak about.

Drain, tired at this time yet dont have the feeling of sleeping

u will alway be the one

2006-04-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

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2006-03-29T13:39:00.000+08:00

today
2 more papers to go
mind not here nor there
down again
wonder when is the last time i was high
haha

wonder what life will be as each of us decide on the path to take
will i still be able to be when you need me if there is still such days around
will i be around to say i will keep my promise
wonder how life will be in10 year time
but dare not think about it

meet up with a close friend who say u change abit but not in the good way which i also feel so
somehow i feel that i should be the one to bright her life instead of the other way around haha
joker i guess i am

but hear no one laughing

Still the same for feeling ................................................................................

2006-03-24T09:42:00.000+08:00

It seen that no matter how everything turn out it is how u face it that matter most
Trust is someting that cant be bought but only can be gain from friend but what to d when u lost it ?
when caring mean hurting
haiz
what can i do to change the fact

someone standing by yourside to be there alway for u

2006-03-14T00:56:00.000+08:00

Thoughts

for many i being missing

that a fact as there seen so many things i need to take care of

Haiz lost of words to write what i feel yet cant write anymore

Faith & Trust

i will alway have in you

Stand by u no matter how hard the path lay ahead

be ur angel

2006-03-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry if there are some friends out there feel that way
i did not mean that at all

as this year some how i just want to spend sometime with a group who remember the date only
sorry if anyway i cause problem for u

update
the following things are only means for ppl who have no bain

and looking for trouble in my study area
when things that happen between 2 and do not want anyone to know about please shut up
as it is very ...........

If i say no it mean NO

even if it is , it got nothing to do with u unless i want to let you know about it if not shut up

dont u think u bother too much things that GOT nothing to do with u at all

plus dont give me the look that u know all as there are more to meet the eyes

appearance may not be the same as what it really is

2006-03-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

not many ppl remember what day today is
and i cant blame anyone at all but at the very least
i know that there ar ea few that know what day it is
i am touch by it as i did not expect toget sms from them at all
so here i am to say THANKS

this year different from the past years i rental a car and went to pick my female friend up
and by the time everything is done it is 1+++ and next day have lesson but in a way iam not tired at all.

today went for lesson feeling sick as i am but try not toshow anyone at all after that went tomeet up with her to buy sme items and went for dinner
i really enjoy myself with her by my side
hope tht my 3 wishes will come true that it

time 0002
03/03/06

A day that never to forget

2006-02-28T17:40:00.000+08:00

Your #1 Match: ISFJ

The Nurturer
You have a strong need to belong, and you very loyal.A good listener, you excell at helping others in practical ways.In your spare time, you enjoy engaging your senses through art, cooking, and music.You find it easy to be devoted to one person, who you do special things for.
You would make a good interior designer, chef, or child psychologist.

Your #2 Match: ISTJ

The Duty Fulfiller
You are responsible, reliable, and hardworking - you get the job done.You prefer productive hobbies, like woodworking or knittings.Quiet and serious, you are well prepared for whatever life hands you.Conservative and down-to-earth, you hardly ever do anything crazy.
You would make a great business executive, accountant, or lawyer.

What's" Your Personality Type?

2006-02-26T00:02:00.000+08:00

Still searching for myself
still waiting for mircale
Still thinking of her
Still waiting

Still alive yet ...................

maybe when u seen me you will not know it me
as .........................
sorry that all i can say to all i let down on
to the one i look up to when he alive
to the ones that know me well
to the one that i hurt

2006-02-14T19:31:00.000+08:00

14/02
have being thinking about many things
in a way I was feeling down
Simple thinking no longer the way to move on
If I say I care yet I did something that I thought it show yet instead it cause more problem to u which I am really Sorry for
I am glad to know that there are friends that willing to lent me a listening ear even thought I have being missing so long
but something I still have to settle myself
e.g feeling and finding my goals &myself

2006-02-09T23:30:00.000+08:00

Update of me

things happen fast and too many for me

what turn out to be a outing on a friday night with a friend that is great

but never expect that just a few block from my place it just happen

haiz

Can only say is i am still alive whih my bro say i am very luck to be

will tell u about it when i see u

thought that was the end of what seen tobe end o the bad lucki have just before new year but turn out to be there is one more just waiting to happen

A Friend/teacher/Coach who is close to pass away

i did not have the gut or dont dare to face the truth that He left me and the rest of us the Softball members who all gone down for it

yet i decide not to go down as i speaking frm my heart i have let him down

the regret that will never be gone

did not want to say all this to who is reading this

but just t say is tell the ones tha u care how much they mean to u before anyting unexpect happen

Thanks for asking Andrew on what happen

*The One*

I will keep my promise to the one i say to

will be there for u no matter where i am

will keep all danger away from u

may be it is justwords but will show when there is a need

create mircale out of nowhere just for u

2006/01/09

TWK

2006-01-29T10:58:00.000+08:00

new year time where it is a new start for all chinese ppl
but have to say that is
only 1 person know that i escape injury but my bro car need to repair
12 hour just before new year
haiz not the way to look forward to
for the one that i keep you worry about i am ok
for all other friends that do not know i still alive
but it is really like a nightmas to me

anyway just want to wish all a happy new year
a new year that will not go out !!!!

2006-01-15T01:38:00.000+08:00

update for past 1 week
life in school seen to be getting more hard due to my poor eng level and understand of accontin
just hope that it will not turn out to be a nightmas
outside school life seen normal yet busy .............
3 QQQ
i did not have ans for

1 when in trouble who will first come to mind other than god and family member .eg ?

2 in what kind of friendship term will you call someone in the mid of the night

3 without saying what you mean the person already get the message and carry out for you

A world where questions that will have no end yet it is how the person who has it wanted to solve it in whatever ways he think is the best
sometime it turn out it is the wrong one but no way to correct it as time will not come back
as the different between right one and wrong one is just a word away or a step
all things that before you plan to say or do have to have a ideas in what will it cause after you do / say it.

it is easy to say out i will be the one taking care for all thigs that gone wrong as when the time really come are you really sure you will chicken out at all not many will have the gut to admit it At all
if you give someone a promise that you will do it
you better do the thing you say you will as you never know the promise thatyou set will mean how muchto the person

as to some promise is like normal words that says only without really mean to doit at all
but some will hold on the promise that you say to them.

As for me i am the kind that will keep 95% of the promise that i say out but also depend on the person i say to as different person i promise to will carry different level of trust & faith i have in them. but to the ones i care for no worry as it will never be break once igive you my words.

up to now i still do not know what kind of person i am
as in am ia trouble some person who only know to give trouble t ppl around me
, never thought for other feeling at all , showing care to the ones that really know and need it
being a angel that alway be there for you

that me some part i guess is true from what i think i am
what do you think i am